And that’s how life goes… August 29, 2007Posted by monish in crush, heaven.
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Just got off the phone with a girl I had the hugest crush on last year. I’ve since gotten over her and didn’t think very much about her at all. I thought the world of this person, but she had a boyfriend and being the nice guy that I am, I never made the attempt to be the other guy and breakup what seemed to be a good thing.
We had a long talk this evening. She told me how she’s sick of her boyfriend and his drinking ways. And how she wishes he’d be more focussed on her, on life, on everything. If ever there was someone who was reaching out to me, this was it. I’m apparently a very good person to reach out to at times of distress. Numerous people have and this was no different. Listening to her unsually nasal voice, I could tell she’d been crying. She tells me the boyfriends changed and has said some mean and hurtful things recently. This made her cry and I don’t like to hear people say they’ve been crying. It pulls at my heartstrings. I was torn between sympathizing with her and telling her to grow up and suck it up. Ofcourse I chose the former. I’d like to think my words to her were wise and soothing, atleast she said so.
I didn’t have the heart to tell her that her loser boyfriend will amount to nothing at the rate at which he’s going. That she’s setting herself up for a life of failure with being with this guy. That she should just wake up, smell the coffee and kick the dirtbag to the sidewalk and move on. I told her she deserves to be appreciated and the guy she’s with should think she’s the best thing since sliced bread. She goes on to say some very nice stuff about me. I’m flattered. I have the strangest hunch where this conversation is headed but my heads not spinning, my heart isn’t palpitating with anticipation. I know this boat has long sailed.
That’s how the world works though. We don’t always get what we want, when we want it. How do we even know if what we want is actually what we need? Maybe the eternal mismatches of the universe are the way things should be.